To the beautiful boy who could never love me back;
I wonder if my sadness
drove you away,
that you were worried
one day I might break into
so many tiny pieces that i couldn’t
possibly put myself back together again.
I wonder if the graceless way
i let myself fall in love with someone,
who only meets me halfway,
sent you running because
you couldn’t handle that sort of
commitment, i understand now that
I gave you more love than you
could swallow down.
I wonder if my tendency
to drink my feelings away
made you decide that
that someone as self destructive as I
did not deserve to be loved by
someone so beautifully sane.